Life Goes On

If It's Meant To Be, It Will Be.

It's been ages since I last wrote something on here. That must mean something: everything has been going according to plan--until recently. I've been contemplating the circumstances that have dawned upon me recently and I realized that things have not been going my way. The things that I have envisioned are not exactly coming to fruition.

I have been in constant communication with my parents. I frequently tell them about my problems and these small hurdles that have come my way. I've complained a lot, and felt hopeless that things are not going according to plan. My parents could only tell me to stop being so pessimistic and realize that everything will unfold naturally, in the most purposeful of ways.

Earlier today, I found out about another hurdle that would make it harder for me to get over my board exam and finally jump into the work force. I realized that it would still take me until May of next year before I can actually be fully eligible to take the CPA exam. Obviously, this was not part of my plans. I have always assumed that by the end of this year, I would have met all the necessary requirements to take the exam. Unfortunately, as a result of my moving to Texas to be closer to my family next year, Texas-specific requirements started jumping at me -- none of which could be solved instantly.

I called my mom again to tell her about my newfound problem. After listening to my gripe and whine once more, she finally told me to quit worrying. Apparently, my dad has been affected by all my worrying and started feeling down about all this. My mom uttered one of the most common yet overwhelmingly striking Tagalog proverbs: "Kung hindi uukol, hindi bubukol." To put simply, if it's meant to be, it WILL be.

I uttered a sigh. It was true. Somehow, we are all meant for something out there. God works in His mysterious and wondrous ways, and if something is meant for you, then by all means, it will happen one way or another. All you have to do is to believe and keep your faith strong and steadfast.

I decided to talk to my dad, and the first words I told him were: "Ganito pala ang totoong buhay, hindi lahat ng pinaplano mo ay mangyayari sa paraang gusto mo." Oddly, I started tearing up on the phone. I tried very hard not to let my dad hear even the slightest sniffle, as that would obviously make the situation much worse. All those little problems and tests of faith that I've been encountering recently have started sinking on me. This is it, Mark. Welcome to the REAL world! Not everything happens when, where, or how you want it, and plans don't necessarily materialize in the way you want them to.

When we think about it, life does seem unfair. No matter how much effort we put into it, sometimes, it just doesn't work the way we want it to. Even after my years upon years in college, I'd still have to weed through so many hurdles to get to where I want to be. Life seems like a never-ending abyss of suffering.

But despite all this, if there is one thing we can bring home at the end of every day, it's to NEVER GIVE UP. No matter how hard life is at the moment, it is not the end. Hard work always pays off. It may not happen when you expect it, but it will happen eventually. My mom was right. If something was meant to be for you, then by God, it WILL be for you. Part of our existence is to learn how to tread deep waters and not get sick and tired of it. Life is not supposed to be easy, otherwise we will never learn how to be strong. So always remember, if your life isn't all it's cracked up to be at the moment, it doesn't spell the end for you. Just keep working hard for your dreams, and someway, somehow, you will get there. Believe in yourself, and most importantly, believe in God.